Saturday, February 21, 2009

Facing your fears

London, a city I love but recently associated with someone I lost from my life.
I was scared to come and be alone in London so I spent my birthday with friends, participated in a conference and asked Kiki to come earlier and meet me here..she hasn't been here almost 25 years.She hates London cause it's associated with a difficult period in her life.
We decided to face our fears here together, to demystify the city, we did the same thing 3 years ago in NY, same time, she was there for me when Ia sked her.

The view of the sunset is gorgeous while listening to Mazzy Star and fade into you.....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

The Frames - Star Star **

Star star, teach me how to shine shine....
the perfect song while reading the Little Prince, being filmed in the city I adore....

Friday, February 13, 2009

Words full of smells and flavors...


The last week two very good friends gave me a book and a cd.
The book is The Little Prince.The cd is a collection of traditional songs from Izmir together with a book explaining the history and music of this multicultural city.
I read the little prince when I was a kid and I still have the book at my parent's house.
20 years later I bought it for a little girl I never met, but thought that it's the best book to start reading.
The little prince is next to my bed 3 days now and makes me feel safe cause I wake up and feel like kid again.The music makes me cry cause I feel sodade for an area I deeply love but have left so many years ago....
In both cases the smile comes when I read the notes of my friends.Simple words, words full of love and warmth which bring smells and flavors....and lots of sun....

Regret....

Initially I couldn't describe what I felt.So I let it blank, I only posted the title...
So after all those times I said I never regretted for anything in my life, I feel I'm ready to say:
Oh yes lately I regretted a decision I took but have to learn to live with the feeling of regret and move on...and now I'm self cancelled cause I use the two words I denounced recenlty for their arrogance and ignorance as I said....